By Sarah Fader

Published December 1, 2011

 

It’s 6:12 am here in the Fader-Van Luyn household, and I am proud to say that I successfully submitted my application for graduate school online. Here is a physical manifestation of my efforts.

It cost me $75 dollars to receive this photograph, but the meaning behind it is profound, just look at the word at the top of the picture: “confirmation.” This photograph is confirmation that my application has been put into the pool.It’s confirmation that I’m going to further my career, enrich my life and my family’s lives. I hope this picture is the sign of great things to come.
 
But the “confirmation” is abstract. I want to receive tangible confirmation. What I’m really waiting for is a large envelope in the mail. I hope the contents of that envelope tell me that I’m on my way to graduate school.
 
I know I’ve been talking about dreading the GRE this whole time. I was able to submit my application before I actually took the GRE. I’ve still yet to register for the exam, but I plan to do so in the next couple of weeks. The University approved my application as long as I noted the date that I was taking the exam.
 
There’s still a few major items on my to-do this. In order to be able to go to graduate school, I need to have financial aid. Thankfully, the NYC Department of Education offers a scholarship for speech-language pathology. I keep obsessively checking the website to see whether or not the deadline for the scholarship has been posted, but each time I check, nothing has been updated.
 
Last week, I emailed my contact at the Department of Education with regard to the scholarship. I haven’t heard back from here, and I’m concerned about missing the deadline to apply for the scholarship in speech-language pathology. I will give her a call today and see if she has any information for me.
 
The other thing that’s weighing heavily on my mind is childcare. Next year, Ari will be four-years-old, and he’ll be in Pre-K during the day from 8:00 a.m. to 3 p.m., although, I’ve yet to start the application process for school. Samara, on the other hand, will only be 18 months. If I get into graduate school, I need to figure out who will watch her while I go to class.
 
My parents will be around for some childcare, but I can’t count on them to watch Samara during all of the time I’m in class. A friend of mine mentioned to me that the University might have childcare on campus. I will have to look into that as well. It would be so convenient to drop Samara off at a daycare that is close to my classes. 
 
If the University does offer childcare, I’m suspicious of how much it will cost. Typically, in New York City daycare is not cheap. We can barely afford to live on what we’re making now; I can’t imagine how we’ll factor daycare into the picture.
 
On the one hand, I have confirmation. There is the peace of mind that my application has been submitted. With that glimmer of hope to keep me motivated, there are still major concerns that need to be addressed. In the mean time, I’ll focus on the picture in front of me, and take solace in the fact that my application is in the process.  
 

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